This post is real life.
Teething is hard- on everyone!
Melts downs by the second- both by baby and momma.
Sleep schedules disrupted.
You do whatever it takes for silence.
The few moments of silence will be interrupted by the phantom crying or screams that are ringing in your ear, maybe someday in a few years that will eventually disappear.
**Before reading any further I'd just like to say that if you're past this point you may consider giving advice or judging these actions.
You may also want to say something like: "Well at least she's not..." Please don't.
Trust me, I have already done that to myself.
Then I remember and am encouraged by the fact that I did whatever it took for a few minutes of quiet. I bet if you think back you'll remember some of those moments when you did whatever it took for quiet.
If you're in this stage right now do what you need to do to ensure sanity in your house and life! You have my permission and support to do whatever it takes!**
Kate's bed is big enough for a children's soccer team to fit in it. So I climbed in, just to calm her down. Immediately she pinned me to the bed and passed out. I was trapped and had no idea how long I would be there before she woke up.
It was super sweet to have my little one cuddling on me. She rarely snuggles. It reminded me of those sweet moments when she was tiny.
And then this happened....
That didn't last long...
Then she pulled a fast one on me...
and left me snuggling with Ms. Cow instead of Kate.
Every day is different. This emotional roller-coaster that she's experiencing is new to me.It's new to her too. So new she doesn't even know or understand the variety of emotions she's feeling- she's learning what all of them are for the first time!
I need so much prayer for wisdom, patience, grace, and the ability to release myself from this unrealistic standard I have for this type of Momma I want to be or think I should be. I want to be free from how I think I should be/act as a mom.
I just want to love Kate well.
I just want to reflect Christ well to her.